Things are close to the end. However, I feel like they have been "close to the end" for a long time. We have finished the classes, finished all the paperwork, and had our visits with the social worker. The only thing we need is for our references and fingerprints to go through, and for our social worker to finish the home study. Then, of course, we're not really at the end; we're merely waiting for the right placement. What a wild ride!
We had our fingerprints done before Thanksgiving. We were worried about Steve's fingerprints going through because they had had a hard time reading them when he was fingerprinted for his gun license. I, on the other hand, had been fingerprinted several times before for teaching certificates and teaching jobs. I had never had a problem. I received an email from our social worker telling me that my prints hadn't gone through. So, I'm going in tomorrow to try and get it to work.
It's been a while since I last posted, but I don't feel any closer or further from getting a placement. However, I have been learning a lesson. A great lesson. The longer time passes, the less obsessed I am with the adoption process. I still have my moments, but it's not like it was earlier. I'm learning to be more content, more focused on the here and now. It's something I've really wanted for a long time. I've always been one who has been looking forward to the next big event. I'm realizing more and more that I'm not in control of this, just as a normal pregnancy isn't in the control of the mom. I'm learning to sit back, trust God, and enjoy the ride!
